its been 5 days i left home. it feels like my body is here, but my mind and soul are with someone. to whom feel the same like me, just hold on your tight. dont ever ever ever be like me. myself, i know my limits and what the only thing that i deserves. yes i have a problem with the my low self esteem nowadys. i dnt know where on earth they gone. pls do come back to me and bring me back my normality because i feel lost without it.

this is not a crap and shit thing that i would like to share in here. to u mr.blog, im sorry if i make your space 'dull' and 'boring'. i love what im doing right now. i love my course, fashion design. i love the chaos and the people but i dnt see clearly what is exactly wrong with me. okay perhaps is about pattern class but i just finished all the works and have a strong feeling that everything will be alright. okay maybe another things come up, maybe the thing is, my own self.

i've been thinking for this too longgg. it is about applying a fast track to degree. yes as we all know, the fast track will be held at shah alam the main campus. that is one of the reason why everybody are seems very excited to apply the application. in my opinion, everything has their own pro and cost. to me, if its not good, why the hell shah alam make an idea about doing a fast track and make a condition whoever aply the application are confirm will be going to shah alam and look forward in fast track. but it is all just an opinion. im not sure if i deserve to be apart of them or just stay here in perak until i grad the diploma and get my certification.

bak kate mak saya, solat istikharah dan solat hajat akan membantu kita membuat keputusan dgn btol. insyaallah.

wherever we are, the hardness and obstacles are everywhere, if choose to be hard, then it will be hard. if we think it is easy, it will be easy.

dear heart, follow your instinct and think wisely what is best for you. DO NOT follow people. you know better than others. heart, whatever the sequences that you might be facing after this were already planned by god. except it sincerely and willing to obey to it.